Saturday, January 21, 2012

Wrong Mom

We received our girls diagnosis this week.

After hanging up the phone, I sat on the edge of my bed and whispered,

"You gave my kids the wrong mom."


Tears streamed down my face.

 I felt like such a loser.

Incompetent.

Useless.

I could immediately think of 10 other women who would be a much better mom to
my children.

I heard the voice of the enemy whisper in my ear over and over all my shortcomings.
Or at least what I perceive as short comings when I compare myself to others.

Comparison will only lead to discontent and doubt.

As any mom will tell you, there is only so long you can sit on the edge of the bed and have a pity party-whether it's for you or your kids.

Life moves on and unless you want to get run over you'd better move on too.

So, I wiped away my tears and got on with the day.

But, condemning whispers and doubts nagged me all day, and the overwhelming thought
that another Mom could take such better care of my kids and their constant health needs.

As I am prone to do, I mulled these things over and over in my head.

No doubt, Mary the mother of Jesus, had to have felt those feelings sometime during his 33 years here on earth.
"Are you SURE you gave him to the right woman?  I think I am the wrong mom for him."

Never once have I heard the Lord whisper those accusations at me.

Just the enemy.

Do you ever feel like your kids have the wrong mom? Like, perhaps if they had a different mom their lives would somehow be perfect?

My guess is  yes.  Because their is nothing more the enemy likes than to whisper lie after lie into our ears until we believe them more than the Truth.

So, you and I have a choice. Do we believe the lies or do we believe the one who has kept ever promise since time began?

Do we trust that He knows exactly who our  children need-and we're it?

Do we trust that even when we have no answers or any idea of what to do, He does? Our only job is to follow.

That He has a plan and purpose for our lives and our children's -and part of that is He gave them EXACTLY the right mom?

So, yes your screaming toddler needs YOU.
Or your moody teenager.
Or your sick little one.
And the kid with every learning difficulty there seems to be.

As, helpless and under qualified as we might feel, we are their exact right mom.

Because, in our weakness He is made strong.

Side by side on this journey with you,
Angie

3 comments:

Anonymous said...

You always say exactly what I am feeling at the moment.
Thank you for being so open and honest.

Angie said...

That is so kind thank you.

Hillbilly Tonya said...

You need a hug. So will she be all better soon?

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