Monday, September 14, 2015

Ashley Madison and Me

As news broke of the Ashley Madison security breach a few weeks and all the fallout that would

come to result from it, I found myself becoming more pious and judgmental with every

'celebrity' name that was thrust out there for the world to see, scorn and scoff at.

After all, I would never. . .and you would never. So they were getting what they

deserved right?


Yesterday, I celebrated losing 101 1/2lbs.

I've been posting some of my success here and lots of it on social media.  I am

praised and patted on the back and called an inspiration.

But, perhaps 2 months ago now, I became so convicted and grieved in my spirit.

I had to go to my precious husband and apologize.

Apologize for the sin of gluttony.

He, ever so kindly said I had nothing to apologize to him about.

But, I had to My GOD.  For every time I let food fulfill some hole instead of him.  For every

hurt I ate away, every joy I ate instead of celebrating with Him.

Yes, I spent some serious time in confession and repentance with Him.

Turns out, I'm not so different from those on Ashley Madison after all.


Sin is sin is sin is sin.

Yes, different consequences and repercussions are different, BUT sin is sin.

Where sin is reigning free, God is not. Plain and Simple.

Hard to admit, but truth sometimes is.


Of course, as good church going folks, we have our categories of 'real'

sin, and then put the other in a nice neat pile somewhere else.

Not, that God ever does that.

Gossip, Slander, Gluttony, Anger. . .we don't like to talk about those.

We like to giggle a little about them or we like to justify them.

But, I knew and I KNOW that in my heart I was, I am no different than

those on Ashley Madison.

I sinned against God and my family.

I am now restored. God is on the Throne once again.  I am made whole.

But, it doesn't mean it wasn't true.


Please don't hear me saying that all overweight people are in habitual sin.

I don't know each person story, and you don't either.

My job is not to judge, but to speak truth  in love and to love people right

where they are.

If Jesus has NEVER ONCE required me to clean up first before coming to Him, that

why do we insist others do that to come to us??

I am saying I was.

Admitting it has opened my eyes.

Repentance wasn't a weight that has held me back- IT HAS SET ME FREE.


Whatever your habitual sin is: a life of promiscuity, adultery, lust, gossip, greed, malice, lying,

or like me gluttony.

God loves you. He wants to forgive you. Your sins have already been nailed to the cross.

Confess them to Him, and live FREE.

And always always alway remember; You are dearly loved.